The Making of Monstrous Me: The Earliest Horror Films of My Formative Years (That I Remember, At Least...)

Right... deep breath.  Firstly... are you okay?

Well, hello there. It's been a long time since I've posted here in this crepuscular crypt of cinematic suffering. It's even longer since I had to think of a way to start a blog piece - the last few bits 'n' bobs that have gone up over the years since 2019 have been things I had saved as rough drafts because they had been started and written to a greater or lesser extent before then, and it was just a matter of finishing them off and posting them when I felt able to. Sorry if they weren't up to my usual standard. "Don't be silly," you reply in unison, "you don't have standards!" Quite right. I'm sure most of us have had a rough time of the last couple of years, so I'm not going to harp on about it and relay a litany of woes, but it has been more than a bit shit. So now the illness and grief is over (mostly), I find writer's block a thing. Weird that something you could once do without even thinking about it - even if that meant the results were crappy - can become so difficult and one finds oneself gripped with anxiety when faced with the tyranny of the blank white screen demanding to be filled with words. On which note, if the very nice James from We Are Cult sees this: I shouldn't have submitted the first part of a multiple part piece at the time I did. That Part One must be lonely, waiting all this time for its siblings to join it. Maybe I'll get in the Guinness book for the longest interval between an opening chapter and the rest appearing. 

Procrastination's what you need, if you want to be a record breaker.

So I was wracking my brains trying to think of something to write about to break myself back in to blogging, as well as getting back up to speed to be able to finish the longer pieces I'd been in the middle of before everything went heinous, when I stumbled upon a video on the HorrorHands Youtube channel titled 'The First Horror Movies I Ever Saw'.  A very good watch it was, too - but mostly the concept caught my eye.  Or my brain.  Or my MIND'S EYE, as M*ry Wh*t*h**s* might screech.  I thought "Nice idea.  I'm going to steal that".  Thanks for the inspiration, Bryn.  This is an homage, not a rip-off.

So I'm going to run with that concept and wrack my ailing brain for the earliest examples of the genre I recall beholding.  Since my parents were generally cool with me watching horror so long as it wasn't too extreme by their random standards (as we shall see, there was at least one occasion where a movie crossed their arbitrary line), I decided to make it a Top Eight - 'cause we like a list, us fans, don't we - and also make them all things I saw before the age of eight.  That might seem random in of itself, but I made 1987 the cut-off point for this list because I have very clear memories of a lot of the movies I saw that year and you never know, stuff like Hellraiser, The Lost Boys, Evil Dead II, A Nightmare on Elm Street 3: Dream Warriors and The Monster Squad might get (a) blog post(s) of their own one day.  If I ever get my shit together.

So, if you're slitting comfortably, we'll begin:

In no particular order, we come firstly to The Burning.

Yeah, it's a shame that looking back at it from a modern perspective it's tainted by the involvement of Harvey Wankstain.  That aside, the tale of Cropsy the incinerated camp caretaker and his revenge wreaked upon the staff and inmates (wait - 'inmates' is the wrong word, and probably just me projecting harshly on unbeloved memories of a week at Thurston as a kid.  Attendees?) of a summer camp is an absolute classic of the slasher subgenre, and in my own opinion the absolute benchmark of the summer camp slasher sub-subgenre.  Sorry Friday the 13th: you might have won the race get to the screen first, but Tony Maylam's 1981 flick is the far superior for my money even if it didn't go on to spawn a litter of variable sequels.  And what a cast, with such 'will soon be too famous for this genre' faces as Holly Hunter, Fisher Stevens and Jason Alexander.  And I'm assuming it was lingering memories of this movie that made me find Leah Ayres so familiar when I saw Bloodsport at around ten, even though I couldn't quite place where I'd seen her before.  It's not like I'd have seen her in anything else.

There's not really a lot to say about The Burning that hasn't been said many times before and more eloquently by others, so I'll just mention the maggoty skull at the beginning that freaked me out, "Like a fucking Big Mac - overdone!", that scene with the canoe and the raft and what happens when secateurs meet fingers, and Rick Wakeman's haunting theme - right up there in my top horror music themes of all time.  We'll be getting to another of them later in the list.  I still have a pre-Video Recordings Act VHS of the movie (hopefully I'm not doxxing myself here as owning something illegal, since the film's now un-banned and available in all its unexpurgated gory glory on DVD and Blu-Ray).  It's not the one I saw before I was five or so, when it was banned; the only way I'd still have that is if my parents had failed to return it to the video shop.  No, it's a copy I bought from a gentleman named Brucie - no, not Forsyth, I'm not that old - at university for a curry and some cans.  Cheers, Brucie.  Less cheers for spiking my drink that night, leading to an incident in which only the fact I was friends with the barmaid meant that the bouncer was stopped from throwing me down a flight of stairs because I was apparently "chewing my face off".  Appreciate the video, didn't appreciate almost being killed.

Glad I got that off my chest.  Apologies for the slight segue.  Back to movies.

At number two we have a bit of a cheat with Wes Craven's 1972 grimy grindhouse grimfest The Last House on the Left.  I say a bit of a cheat because although I definitely saw some of it as a young kid - this being another work that fell foul of the Department of Public Persecution's 1984 'video nasties' banfest - I only saw it as far as the bit where Krug and the gang (they had some good tunes, that band) capture Mari and Phyllis, and the latter is instructed to piss her pants, at which point my dad leapt up and roared "Get this shit off!".  Interesting that although my parents were fine with me watching the other things on this list, enforced urination crossed some sort of line.  Perhaps he found it triggering or something.

And so it wasn't until about fifteen years later that I got the chance to actually watch the entire film.  I like to think of it as the longest intermission in film history.  Most people don't need a decade and a half to go for a wee or get a choc ice.  I understand if anyone thinks that should disqualify the movie from being here since I only initially saw the first... I dunno, twenty-five minutes (?) of it whilst an actual child (you know, if I was doing due diligence and being less lazy I'd actually check how far into the film the peeing bit is, but I'm guessing roughly half and hour-ish), but that scene and the whole incident meant it stayed with me for a long time.  Along with the resentment at not getting to see the rest of it.  My father had been dead for about seven years before I finally got to watch it the whole thing.  I'm not sulking anymore, Dad, we're OK.

Next up, probably the first film I watched enough times to commit the majority of the dialogue to memory: John Landis' 1981 legendary lycanthropic tale of carnivorous lunar activities An American Werewolf in London.  I was always intensely interested in change and transformation in film, making werewolves and shapeshifters in general probably my absolute favourite cinematic subjects.  Of course Rick Baker's groundbreaking and Oscar-winning (an accolade that the horror genre doesn't get to boast very often: off the top of my head the only other Academy Award winners in the genre that occur are Fredric March and Anthony Hopkins; both winning the Best Actor Oscar for 1932's Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde and 1990's The Silence of the Lambs respectively and showing the gulf of years betwixt the genre getting a nod in one of the big, non-technical categories) make-up has rightly been hailed and lauded; I wonder how much Rob Bottin regrets turning down the gig and letting his assistant do it?

Depicting the change from man to animal (a bit like Manimal, a TV show whose brief run I loved for much the same reasons.  I've still got the annual, somewhere) in visceral and eye-watering bone-crunching detail, the transition was so complete and convincing it allowed the viewer to still see David Naughton's doomed David Kessler in the puppetry-animated monstrous dire wolf that wreaks its carnivorous lunar activities upon the capital in the film's carnage-filled climax, and feel empathy in its unavoidably tragic conclusion.  That bit where the lovely Jenny Agutter tries to talk to the lupine beast in the darkened alley, getting in between the werewolf and the armed police team itching to destroy this thing that was the man she loves, fair broke my little heart.  Still does, every time. 

Lucio Fulci's Zombie Flesh Eaters is the only film on this list to have also ranked on Bryn's video, and for a moment I thought of missing it off but that moment of madness - akin to a politician caught "looking for badgers" on a heath - passed quite quickly when I realised there was no was I could honestly compile this docket of dread without it.  Emerging into the world in 1979 like myself, Zombie Flesh Eaters (or Zombie 2, or just plain Zombi depending upon your regional variations) upped the ante on the shambling cannibalistic undead template set by George A. Romero initial two - and best - entries in his own series by making the anthropophagous revenants truly foetid and putrescent, carrying the rank stench of mouldering burial vaults as they feast upon humanity's warm flesh and blood.  The opening sequence made me very trepidatious about setting foot aboard boats.  Not that we had a lot of cause for going on yachts when I was younger, but if offered I'd have refused lest a burly bald undead (like a cross between Tor Johnson, Quito from Strange Paradise, and Gluttony from Se7en [yes, I still insist on pronouncing it 'seh-seven-en' because I think it's funny]) come shambling at me out of the dark.

And a Fulci film wouldn't be a Fulci film without some eyeball trauma, 'cause Fulci gonna Fulci.  The scene where Olga Karlatos' Mrs Menard has her head slowly pulled towards a splintered piece of wood and the camera lovingly lingers, unflinching, on the shot of her eye being impaled gripped me was fascinated horror.  Movies could do that?  Truly, of all the things little me beheld, this may have been the single thing that warped my tiny mind and got me obsessed with cinema and how it was made.  Responsible for a lot, that shot.  Oh, and the film has an underwater fight between a zombie and a shark.  That short sequence would be the pitch for an entire film these days, though it would be made for SyFy and drenched with crappy CGI rather than drenched with Fabio Frizzi's evocative electronic score (though my absolute favourite of his scores has to be Voci dal Nulla from The Beyond).

Coming in at number five we have Curse of the Devil.  Another werewolf flick, this one if from 1973 and is the sixth (or seventh, depending on whether or not you believe The Nights of the Werewolf  ever existed) entry in the Waldemar Daninsky saga of Spanish horror star Paul Naschy.  Directed by Carlos Aured, who also directed Naschy joints such as the Gothic Horror Rises from the Tomb and the splendid giallo The Blue Eyes of the Broken Doll (a.k.a. House of Psychotic Women), this differs from the usual Daninsky entries in that it has a late 1890s period setting rather than the present day.  Oh, and in that it was the first of Naschy's films I ever saw.

Rented from the Video Centre rather than our usual EB Video, I distinctly recall choosing this film because I confusedly thought it was The Evil Dead due to their deceptively similar video covers (that, combined with a title and a trailer selected to play up a spurious link with The Exorcist, make it seem like the distributors were desperate to hide the fact that it was a werewolf movie.  I guess the loup-garou was out of fashion for a while until the early '80s double-team of American Werewolf and The Howling) and was a tad disappointed when the movie started and obviously wasn't Sam Raimi's famous video nasty.  In the words of Bob Mortimer, "I did it out of ignorance".  However, disappointment soon turned to joy as the film went on and it began to dawn on me that we had a wolfman on our hands.  Naschy's classic-style werewolf being a sort of Lon Chaney Wolf Man updated for '70s Euro horror with its attendant full colour gore was what I imagined Hammer would have done if they hadn't stopped at The Curse of the Werewolf and had a series of werewolf films to accompany their Dracula and Frankenstein sagas. It would be a few years before I would catch another Naschy film, but I've made up for it since, as I now own... (quickly counts on fingers) twenty nine of his oeuvre.  Still a lot to see, mind.

Baltimore's Don Dohler had already established himself as somewhat of a local cottage industry by the time of 1980's Fiend, after writing, producing and directing a number of shorts in Maryland before breaking into the feature-length scene with The Alien Factor in 1978.  Even though he would go on to make such lo-fi schlock classics as the 1982 Nightbeast (one of the first Troma releases I ever saw, not counting Belgian baffler Rabid Grannies) and yet another 'alien invades the Maryland countryside single handed' flick - Don not being most famous for his variations of storytelling/scenarios - in 1985 with the astonishing The Galaxy Invader, Fiend was the one my sister and I watched as kids and the one that stuck with both of us.

Being I suppose at least a slight spin on Dohler's favourite format, while Fiend deals with an evil entity that descend from the sky at the outset this is a supernatural creature rather than an extraterrestrial - a malevolent glowing thing this floats over a graveyard before inhabiting and reanimating the corpse of Mr Longfellow, who must replenish himself by feeding on the life force of others.  Remembered by Gaynor and myself chiefly for having a red glowing line around him "like an evil Ready Brek man" (boy, that's a dated reference - will anyone get that?), the Fiend himself troubled my imagination long after the tape had been returned to the shop.  Except I wrongly remembered him as having a beard and wearing a cape and top hat instead of a moustache and black suit.  Obviously I caught a glimpse of Jose Mojica Marins' Coffin Joe at some point and mashed them together in my head like a horror movie villain Build-a-Bear.

On second thoughts, it might have been the Hobgoblin from The Moomins.  Yeah, there's more of a chance of that spooky fucker being glimpsed by my child self in the UK of the early '80s than Coffin Joe, probably.

The Incredible Melting Man is a film that I remember far more from the 1978 novelisation by Phil Smith than from hazy recollections of William Sachs' 1977 gloopy grindhouse rendition of a 1950s atomic horror / man into monster movie.  It's amazing, in retrospect, what types of films would get an accompanying paperback novel - from Alan Dean Foster's adaptations of such things as Star Wars and the Alien trilogy to Shaun Hutson of Slugs and Erebus infamy doing his own spin on James Cameron's The Terminator (there was an alternate novelisation by Randall Frakes and Bill Wisher, but I preferred the Hutson, probably just because of the more familiar horror name).

Presumably picked up by my mother while browsing a second hand shop or market stall, said paperback opened with a great scene of a nurse being chased down a darkened corridor by our titular dissolving dude, which my imagination rendered as a kind of Halloween II if Michael Myers had consisted of glistening grisly gristle.  The corresponding scene in the movie was definitely a bit of a let down; the eternal problem of reading the book before seeing the film: it's almost always better lit and directed in the MIND'S EYE.  The photos on both the cover and the inset bunch of pages in the centre of the book (in FULL COLOR) were certainly evocative, detailing the tragic astronaut's gradual gory degradation like an American Victor Caroon.  The film itself couldn't help to be a slight disappointment, despite featuring a small role for the late and lovely Cheryl 'Rainbeaux' Smith - I was too young to appreciate that anyway though.

I definitely appreciated and retained memories of The Keep, though.  Michael Mann's 1983 Nazis versus even more malevolent ancient evil tale was another EB Videos rental just like The Incredible Melting Man (in fact, according to memory, they sat alongside each other on the shelf - along with The Stuff and Street Trash.  Likewise, I recall American Werewolf  being in the vicinity of Caravan of Courage: The Ewok Adventure of all things.  Possibly that was the furries special interest shelf).

Anyway, The Keep and its perils that lay within the tomb of Rasalom (or was that 'The Five Doctors'?) has its own review on this here blog, so I won't waffle on about it as anyone interested in my opinions and thoughts on the movie can see that entry here .  It makes this list mostly for the reason of standing in the video shop and looking at its box art being a particularly strong early memory of mine.

So, there we are: my very own hateful eight (I don't hate 'em, I loves 'em) horror films that I gleefully and ghoulishly reveled in and played no small part into making me the gruesome spectre of the macabre with a fascination for film that I am.  Wouldn't have it any other way.  I'm sure that most of us could recall a litany of the things in our formative years that had an impact on our lives.  This one is mine.